Time Warp

Oh, my gosh! Is it really April 1st already? Where did the last 10 days go?

I have found that "being at home with the baby" is not at all what I thought it was going to be. I had envisioned the baby sleeping all day (which she mostly does) and me with LOTS of time on my hands to do all those projects and tasks that I don't normally make time for - scrapbooking (including my wedding album, which 19 monts post-wedding is still completely blank), catching up with friends, cleaning and reorganizing all the stuff we cleaned and reorganized last month when I crazily decided that we should put our house up for sale and move to a new house BEFORE the baby came, and in general be BORED. None of the above happened.

It took me nearly a week of playing phone tag with my high school friend, Michelle, to let her know about Emma's birth, and I still haven't returned my other friend Michele's phone call from over a week ago. By the time I shower, it's usually time for Curtis to come home from work, and the house is more messy than it was the night before. I have had dinner for Curtis and me only because my mother stocked me up with ready-made food before she left for Kansas. (By the way, I miss her! She did pretty much EVERYTHING while she was here for 3 weeks and now that she's gone, I miss having someone take care of me.) I have no idea where my scrapbooking stuff is because I haven't had time to look for it seeing that I haven't time for it at all. And if I must have an appointment during the day, say, for Emma's pediatrician, I need to start getting ready two hours in advance, and am utterly exhausted by the time we get home an hour after the appointment. What I do recall doing during the day is a lot of diaper changing - about 9 to 12 per day to be exact, depending on Emma's need for double duty (one before and after feeding) - and a lot of pumping (which requires its own blog - which I'll get to another day when I don't have time).

I'm not sure when this time warp thing stops, and I get the hang of having a "schedule" of sorts, but I hope it's soon because I already don't remember what day of the week it is, and the fact that I have lived for over a month without a calendar or wearing a watch is a little bit frightening.